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This is my first blog (on anything). I have no idea what I’m doing/what to write. This will be the umpteenth “diet” I have tried. I am not following any specific plan this time. I am trying to make this a life change, as they call it.  I have recently been diagnosed with Type II Diabetes. I went to the nutritional training and I know how I am supposed to be eating (how many carbs, proteins, fruits & veggies, etc, per meal/day). The big thing (ha, no pun intended) is to lose weight. Well, duh, I could have told them that. My biggest (there is that word again) obtacle is the exercise thing. My sisters and I call it “that ‘E’ word”. I truly do have obstacles there because I have several chronic, painful conditions that make it hard for me to even move during the day, much less think exercise. I am also being treated for major depressive disorder and anxiety.  I know I am in some ways using these health issues as an excuse. And, believe me I have heard that exercising will make me feel better in the long run. I know this in my head,  its the rest of me that says “Are they kidding?”

So here goes yet another attempt to get healthy and, perhaps, rid myself of the self loathing.

Thanks for listening.

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